[Continued from part one.]
[p6]I hardly Know what to do about it. I would like the command, but then my Regiment dont wish to let me give the command of the Regiment up. The Major would be the man who would be in command (Webb being absent) and they do hate the Major most bitterly. The Regiment would of course be under my command as Brigade Commander but still not the immediate commander. They would all like to see me have a Brigade, but they say they cant stand the Major. I am sorry that he is so unpopular, and I think it is entirely in his style of doing things, for he undoubtedly tries to do right. I expect if this Brigade is given me, it will put a stop to my going home recruiting. I am not certain about this however, but hope to Know in a few days. If I get the Brigade, I shall try to arrange it so that I can hold that and go [p7] home also. There is an old saying That where’s there is a Will, there is a way, and you may be sure that I have the will and shall make all exertions to find the way. We have been having splendid weather for the last few weeks, but to day it has suddenly turned quite cold and I am never writing with my overcoat on, not having any stove, but I think very likely by to morrow it will change and be warm and pleasant again. # [symbol in pencil] You say that you too have the Blues and miss me very much. I feel very sorry for you my darling Wife and do wish I could either be with your or have me you with me. I suffer very often with this Miserable disease and I Know that if you were always by my side I should never be troubled with it, but I suppose it can not be especially at present, but my ardent [p8] desire, is that it soon very soon may be. You say that for a few days you have not been very well, why did you not tell me what was the matter. I feel very uneasy about you and I wish I Knew how you were. I am afraid you might get sick and me not be present. Do my darling Keep up if possible. If you are going to have a sick time of I shall most assuradely come home immediality even if I have to desert. I wish that we were up North farther it would not then take me so long to hear from you if anything should happen you. I Know you are in good hands and would receive the best of care and attention if you were taken sick, but still I would like to be by your side if you were sick. I would take better care of you than [p9] any one else could. Dont you remember what good care I took of you when you were sick while we were travelling. There is nothing like having your Husband by your side. I am glad to Know that you are not forgetting me and still miss me, but I always Knew you would never forget me, I feel to secure in your love to feel any uneasiness on that score and you may rest assured my dear Anna, that I will never never forget you, but Keep you in my thoughts constantly. I
K now feel twice the man that I did before, when I think that I have such a nice dear Wife at home, and I now have a great incentive to do well Knowing that my wife will be pleased to hear of any and all good reports about her Husband.
I have not forgotten the promise I made [p10] you about reading your Bible, and I always read in it every night before I go to sleep. I am glad that you remember your absent Husband in your prayers, and I hope your wishes on that point may be fulfilled I have no feeling whatever on the subject, and I do not intend being hippocrite enough to try to make any one beleive I have. I respect religion but truth and candor compel me to say I
am can at present do nothing more. May your hopes and wishes in my case, some day be realized is my sincere wish, so no more on that point at present.
You see I am Keeping up my Letter Writing to you and I hope you will do the same. Day before yesterday was five weeks since I left you and this is the sixteenth Letter. You are not doing so well, but I am still hoping that when you see how [p11] faithful I am in this matter that you will change. I will still continue on in my present course and if I find you will not improve and write me oftener, say four Letters a week, why I shall then have to commence cutting down in my writing. A Wife should write oftener than the Husband and if you will only write me two a week I will have to come down to giving you one letter a week. What do you think of this doctrine my darling. I write you much longer Letters than you do me, this you can not deny, can you? You say in this Letter that you have written me Eight Letters. I have received but seven so that there must be one written between Oct 31 and Nov 5th behind. I shall probably get this in the next mail. Be sure and send me a Letter by way one coming [p12] to the Regiment, and then write your usual number and send by mail, so that all I get by private hands will be extra. Can you not do this my dear and darling Wife. The slippers that you are going to make for me will be very very acceptable. I need them and will wear them a great deal and every time I put them on I will remember and think with a great deal of pleasure of my darling and lonely Wife left behind me. Have you yet received an answer to your Letter from Cousin Mary Coray and have you received my Photographs, do not forget to send me three or four. If I felt so disposed and had them I could give away here in the Regiment such a
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